Feeling anxious and off-kilter and overwhelmed and sad and frustrated. About what? Can't really say with any specificity. Everything. Holiday stress? Maybe. Traveled recently too, and that usually throws me off (though i do love to travel anyhow).
I hate feeling like this. I know I am a totally capable person and my life is FAR FAR from spinning out of control, so it just makes no sense to me. THAT's what is most frustrating. How do you fix what really isn't wrong? If I was having specific negative thoughts I know lots of things to try to help that, but I'm not. Just kind of a big vague sense of dread, like a disembodied voice whispering in my ear "you'll never get all this done. you can't do this. it's all just too much. you. can't." (Don't worry, I'm not really hearing voices. It's a simile.)
You take your little white pills from the doc, that's how. Which I also hate, but it's greatly lesser of two evils in this instance. Be crazy or be mildly drugged with an anti-anxiety Rx? I know which one my friends and family prefer... In the meantime I'm pretty much useless since I can barely manage to get myself through the day, I don't have much else left for anyone else needing my assistance.
I do have a lovely little fiber optic tree in my office though, and it makes me smile :) It's the little things, and one step at a time, one day at a time. ~deep breath~
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